Jo!

2007-11-16T22:50:00.000+08:00

"anything I can do for you?"
"call 911, I've been shot!"
"alright, what's it's number?"

2007-11-07T22:51:00.000+08:00

And hence the end has come. The fact that I actually don't have to study for any major examination for a single point in my entire life so far hasn't sunk in yet. I sit here feeling rather empty. But hooray for I have good plans for my holidays till the end of this year. This is life((:

2007-10-13T21:21:00.000+08:00

Curves of tinted light,

Vanish liberated souls
Consummating ash.

2007-09-21T22:48:00.000+08:00

Once you gave me dandelions

Random stalks plucked too carelessly

They were just from your backyard

Dandelions will never be roses.

Gutter flowers, just gutter flowers.

2007-08-17T22:00:00.000+08:00

I finally come to a period where I don't want to even study. And everything else other than school is stressing me up. And worse, my problem is hitting back again. Which is why I tend to get more depressed easily. Argh. I hate the things happening on my life now. I want to eradicate them as soon as I can manage. I need to prioritize too.

2007-08-10T22:12:00.000+08:00

My bro just brought 2 Vietnamese boys over for a 3 day home stay which is part of his school's cultural exchange programme i think. It's pretty cool and they do speak quite well. We should get them to eat durians. Hmm, I wonder if they do get durians over there.

2007-08-09T22:01:00.001+08:00

I was walking down a sidewalk just now and suddenly felt this great sense of frustration and helplessness. I thought there had to be something really wrong with me, yet I could not express it in words. Then there are times I feel that no one steps up to help me, rather. Should I seek professional help for what I've been feeling. It sounds bad that I think I need a shrink. I don't need a shrink!! Should I? I think I'm sinking into some emotional wreckage now but it's hard to pull myself out of it.
Grgh, I'm getting all jittery once again over my 'O's. And I just got 2 more tutors to help, therefore making the number of tuitions i have to be 3. I hope I get over and done with this as soon as time allows. I hate exams so much that I think I won't stop having nightmares about them when I grow up. Eww...

2007-08-05T21:16:00.000+08:00

a fat dream, a fat dream, we can never have world peace.

2007-08-03T22:50:00.000+08:00

Ah I'm back from group studying with jk and his friends. Oh and I made a new friend among them(: I'm sick of Science period. Tomorrow's my mock science exams and I hope whatever I did today will be of good use.

I almost dozed off in class today but was kept awake by the constriction of my stomach caused by the tightness of my school skirt, because I drank 1/2 a litre of milk which effectively bloated my stomach to twice it's normal size (okay that's exaggeration) and i further ate a cup of yoghurt. Today is dairy product consumption day and I've come to realization that I am very lactose tolerant. There has been zero laxative effect on me so far.

2007-07-28T21:27:00.001+08:00

I realised everyone around me seems to be super stressed, be it work or just personal relationships. I think we all need a BIG break. Friends, if you need someone to talk to or go out for tea, feel free to call me. I guess I'm not the only one feeling horribly stressed out.

Just this week I knew of someone who drunk down (literally, as in, alcohol) his sorrows over he a girl he likes. I think he took things from a different perspective. It's pretty shocking to see how a person can crumble over small issues. I really mean small. He wasn't thinking rationally either. Maybe all of us have to take a step back at times, things may not as bad as they may seem to be. I was just thinking about this because I think I dwell in self-sympathy at times. And my walk with God has gone awry sometime this year. I feel so ashamed.

I slept the whole day to make up for the lost over the weekday. And I think I'm going to lose just as much sleep next week because my gut feeling tells me I won't be able to cope with the math revision of the last 4 tutorials for my upcoming test. tsk!

2007-07-27T20:59:00.000+08:00

need sleep need sleep need sleep. again i have been mugging like some crazydog for the past week, waking up about 4 or 5 every morning to do my math. i am going to fail this math test. screw it.

2007-07-21T22:09:00.000+08:00

just came back from sf night. i pigged out cos i was super hungry and food was really good. i finally know how to upload zencast podcasts into my mp4. jamie oliver's on it!

2007-07-20T21:25:00.000+08:00

i have mugged even harder this week, and slept even lesser. (it's a good thing my pimple outbreak is recovering:) met up with terter at McDonald's so that he could give me my much needed help in math for my amath test which is just over today. i studied from 4 to 9 including about 1 hr of stoning. 4 hrs of math in McDonald's plus 1hr more when i went home. and i woke up at 4am this morning to mug again. i was so desperate to past this test because i knew that it was the only amath test of the year i could actually pass. reason being, we were given about 50 questions from 4 different amaths topics to do and the test would replicate 8 chosen questions, 2 questions from each topic. so i did 2 whole topics worth of questions (all of the log questions with terter's help) to garuntee 1/4 marks of the test. i think i'm going to past this though it'll be a just-pass.

by rights i should be scoring a near full marks since the questions were given beforehand for us to practice, but it's a start of something new for me. a PASS. i'm elated. tomorrow's 3 mock exam papers. this is maddening, it's just non-stop mugging.

the chinese Os results are coming out in Aug. which is really quite soon. i hope i pass. yes, chinese, math and sci is just about passing now.

2007-07-13T21:02:00.000+08:00

i have never, never, mugged this hard my entire life. i think i didn't mug as hard for any of my exams in secondary sch even.

this week, my entire days were occupied with revision, worksheets, lots of pen ink and paper, and a pimple outbreak on my right cheek. so weird. oh screw the pimples, it'll go away soon i hope. school ends late everyday, then i make my way to the library to study till 6.30-7 and reach home near 8, have my dinner and wash up, back to doing my math and sci and additional homework. i'm filled by 11, maybe 11.30, i start to pack up and hiatus my whole day of studying, try to sleep but end up sleeping at 1(which is ultra late in my terms) and wake up at 5.45 that morning. and i don't sleep throughout, i have nightmares about math. i am serious. this is so unfortunate. my week consisted of school, revision, sleep deprivation and contact lens drying up.

the only day i had a deep short sleep was when i dreamt i went to LaSalle and was stuck in a class of just 2 other hot guys who did the same course as me. and i was in a campus filled with all the hot bods/guys in the world. hormones((:

i decided to let myself off today, the only Friday i'd be online hopefully, because i have designated Sunday nights for the computer, weekdays are for hardcore study, sats too though i will make leeway for abit of destressing activities which i haven't thought of yet.

2007-07-06T22:07:00.001+08:00

i'm experimenting with different blogskins. this one's cute.

2007-07-06T20:30:00.000+08:00

Went back home from school after the national anthem was held because i wasn't feeling too well and didn't go to school today either.

ajc picked their players, the really skilled ones, like some xinmin player. and i'm not that skilled, but i dare say i was better than half the lot at the trials. i don't place high hopes on what the teacher told me. Said to expect a call for an interview and told me that if i was rejected after the interview still, i MUST use my prelim results to appeal. which brings me to the fact that if they reject me, why would they still want me to appeal? really, i'd prefer the teacher to be more sincere and reject me straight in my face on that day of trials.

i was like, totally ignored? the coach, i observed, was too happily chatting away with others who had gone for the first trials and decided to go again for continued skills assessment, so i think the coach got to know them pretty well. (which gives them a bit of chance to suck up i guess) it was my first time there since i practically handed in the application 2 days before the last trials. i'm not really pleased with how the whole trials thing was runned. it wasn't exactly trials come to think of it. no one was really assessing anyone. if i get in, i don't know how i can stand the coach. and the teacher in charge for that matter. both don't come across as the nicest lot. but i'll just give them a benefit of doubt for the time being.

i was thinking, if all else fails (every dsa) then i'd consider LaSalle seriously. i know, it's rather big a change compared with jc life. but it won't hurt trying will it? Making crafts (like fashion design perhaps?) and badminton are afterall, my passion(:

2007-07-01T22:38:00.000+08:00

had training with the s'pore mens team coach today. (yes susilo's coach!) and he was really nice and kind. but that 2 hrs was a killer to my poor thighs with all that stretching. he gave some remedy for aching legs after that. which is what i'm sitting through now. here's how:

to stew your feet you need:

1)a pail of boiling hot water (seeing the steam rising from it is better)
2)add abit of vinegar to the water
3)soak your feet in it for 10 to 15 mins

of course i managed to persuade my mum to add some cool water in it first cos i was shrieking away as i tested the heat. and she kept insisting that the water wouldn't be hot anymore and this remedy wouldn't work. but steam! argh! so i added twice the amount of cool water in so that the heat was bearable. imagine, twice the amount to make it bearable. so now i'm soaking my feet in it. it's a good thing i managed to convince my mum the skin of my feet wasn't as hard as hers and that she couldn't feel the heat as easily as i, when i made her test out too. or i would have cooked feet by now.

today's training was super straineous, but cool.

2007-06-30T20:58:00.000+08:00

it's really ironic how things can turn out. i was supposed to submit aj's dsa application on the 29th which i thought is TODAY. but NO, it was yesterday. so i was happily heading to aj in my dad's car when he told me it's the 30th, which i just shrugged away thinking he was joking. tell me am i stupid or am i stupid?! fortunately i checked their website and check this out:

abit small though but it states that though all applications are encouraged to be submitted before 29 june, application will be close on 6 july. boy was it such a fright because the application form in my hand didn't state this but the earlier date.

i was pretty cranky today, hmm, maybe this whole week. and i can't piece everything in my mind together. it's stress from every single damn thing in my life and sometimes i just don't feel like talking things out. and i guess vj isn't gonna call me like what my mum thinks too. but she's helping me get last min training for aj's trials on the following wed by the national coach. omgomg. i think he's the men's team coach. who trained susilo. whoosh. i can't even get my basics right. i think i'm meeting him tmr to train.

this aside and back to the point of me cracking up. i feel as if i'm falling apart. and i can't comprehend the root of this irksome feeling inside, which makes it even more irksome. and i just don't feel like talking things out. i hate this.

2007-06-29T20:33:00.000+08:00

i haven' been slept well this week, averaging 3 hrs sleep per night. ouch. i hope my face doesn't erupt in red spots with all the dsa stress too.

someone who applied for vj dsa badminton got a call for an interview, well apparently that's what i heard. nonono. i don't believe this.

2007-06-22T23:42:00.000+08:00

it's actually quite depressing typing out my cca cert and the total CIP hours done. i keep seeing the principals of vjc and ajc smirking as they read my dsa portfolio in my head. ha ha ha.

just discovered my 10km run is on the day before my Os Amath, so i've pulled out of it. perhaps joining another in sept. i'm projecting my lingering disorder on the run. i hope it helps.

2007-06-21T21:33:00.000+08:00

as i sit on my deck by my window during the night, i start to wonder-why do we live such superficial, materialistic lives, and enjoy continuing doing so, despite it being so utterly dense of us if we carry on this way. sometimes i admire people who can completely feel ignorant. it's probably too painful for them to bear if they start to see the light of the situation they're currently in. maybe once they see how superficial their lives are, they'll feel completely crushed.

ok, i was just wondering(: On the lighter side, i think i'm improving on my current situation with Mia. (and CH, it's not alcoholism, don't worry too because i'm getting better. haha.)

dsaing is mad. it's stressful.

2007-06-16T22:08:00.000+08:00

Innocence gone, never take friendship personal
If you can't hold yourself together
Why should I hold you now?

In a sense gone, never take friendship personal
If you can't hold yourself together
Why should I hold you now?

Once a skeptic, now the critic
And you think that you finally found a place of your own.
Amongst the cold and timid souls
Where only failure knows your name

Innocence gone, never take friendship personal
If you can't hold yourself together
Why should I hold you now?

In a sense gone, never take friendship personal
If you can't hold yourself together
Why should I hold you now?

really...

2007-06-16T21:28:00.000+08:00

i don't really like this blogskin now come to think of it. but an earlier blogskin i chose did not have its pictures shown, and i really loved it. oh well, i hate searching for new skins but i think i'll change to another better suited soon.

this morning mum pointed out a Great Eastern 10km competetive run event which takes place around Oct. i'm going to take part in this((: the event's a fund raising thing, but it'll still be a memorable milestone in my life considering the furthest i went was 5km.

Mia is 4 months old now, or at least near 4 months, because i can't really remember when Mia entered. i think i shall take it as the mid-month period, because i think that's where cny was and that's when i started feeling real guilty and afraid. that's afterall, the main reason why Mia crept in. i cannot believe how time flies and i try to imagine my throat being worn down bit by bit, which is really quite amusing. i don't know what i'm doing with her, i cut her down to almost half, but she still will be there. i've given up trying to push her out.

If you can't get rid of it, embrace it...

2007-06-15T16:13:00.000+08:00

i don't like it when ego men approach girls in the badminton court for a match or two.

and i'm dsa-ing for that matter. argh, stress flux.

2007-06-06T16:56:00.000+08:00

If only our digestives systems were like ever-operating dams that could flush out fats 24/7. (but it'll mean having to bring the toiletbowl around too) i need to work on it without even building a dam.

i just was informed that I have a severe case of Mia, because she takes effect a few times a day, while normal cases only happen maybe once or twice a week. my mind always clashes when i tell Mia to get out because i don't want those who know about my Mia to feel helpless since i'm not helping myself out, but then the minute "objects of sin" (as i refer to) gets stomached in, i tend to get Mia crawling back in as strong as ever, ready to expel these "objects of sin".

THE BRAIN THE MIND THE BRAIN THE MIND. heck what's the difference. i should kill both off.

On a lighter note, i don't feel as guilty now:))

2007-06-05T10:36:00.000+08:00

1 Cor 13:4-7

"4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perserveres."

I need to learn from this.

2007-06-04T19:43:00.000+08:00

sticks and stones may break my bones,
people may do the same too...

2007-06-03T19:51:00.000+08:00

Mia was practically non-existent today. I felt so depressed that i walked a few hours. why do i repeatedly fall back two steps when i've been trying to take baby steps forward bit by bit. i don't learn from mistakes do i? yesterday's decadence is today's shadow.

Use me then toss me, I'm nothing but a mere gutterflower...

2007-05-27T19:56:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder how long she'd stay.

2007-05-26T17:33:00.000+08:00

I hate Mia. It's like, for the past 3 months, she's always telling me what to do when i don't want to do so even. Her voice is like a force. It attracts, and repels. That's why i keep thinking of what to do to get rid of her, yet at times i just want her to stay. i found pro-mia places but i don't even want to venture in. It's sucks people into an endless pit of darkness. self-help books are useless. Mia keeps countering them. once i did managed to get her off my back (or head) and i managed for a week, but when things around me started to crumble again, she crawled her way back. what do i do to Mia? Embrace her and tell her how much i missed her because she was always there when i felt down (literally there)? You guys tell me to kick her out but it is easier said than done. i read it might take 2 years. I'm afraid of the implications. people who don't know Mia personally don't really know what's it like. It's like a losing battle i'm fighting every single damn day. get out of my life. period.

2007-05-19T22:29:00.000+08:00

Concrete girl don't fall down in this broken world around you
Concrete girl don't fall down
Don't fall down my concrete girl

Meant To Live

Fumbling his confidence
And wondering why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he's bent for more than arguments
And failed attempts to fly, fly

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

Dreaming about Providence
And whether mice or men have second tries
Maybe we've been livin with our eyes half open
Maybe we're bent and broken, broken

We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than the wars of our fathers
And everything inside screams for second life, yeah

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live
We were meant to live

Gone

She told him she'd rather fix her makeup
Than try to fix what's going on
But the problem keeps on calling
Even with the cellphone gone
She told him that she believes in living
Bigger than she's living now
But her world keeps spinning backwards
And upsidedown

Don't say so long, and throw yourself wrong
Don't spend today away
Cuz today will soon be
Gone, like yesterday is gone,
Like history is
Gone, just trying to prove me wrong
And pretend like you're immortal

She said he said live like no tomorrow
Every day we borrow
Brings us one step closer to the edge (infinity)
Where's your treasure, where's your hope
If you get the world and lose your soul
She pretends like she pretends like she's immortal

Don't say so long
You're not that far gone
This could be your big chance to makeup
Today will soon beGone,
like yeterday is gone,
Like history is gone,
The world keeps spinning on,
Your going going gone,
Like summer break is gone,
Like saturday is gone
Just try to prove me wrong
You pretend like your immortal your immortal

We are not infinite
We are not permanent
Nothing is immediate
We're so confident
In our accomplishments
Look at our decadence

Gone, like Frank SinatraLike Elvis and his mom
Like AL Pacino's cash nothing lasts in this life
My highschool dreams are gone
My childhood sweets are gone

Life is a day that doesn't last for long
Life is more than money
Time was never money
Time was never cash,
Life is still more than girls
Life is more than hundred dollar bills
And roto-tom fills
Life's more than fame and rock and roll and thrills
All the riches of the kings
End up in wills we got information in the information age
But do we know what life is
Outside of our convenient Lexus cages

She said he said live like no tomorrow
Every moment that we borrow
Brings us closer to the God who's not short of cash
Hey Bono i'm glad you asked
Life is still worth living, life is still worth living

2007-05-19T11:29:00.000+08:00

It's been rather long since i've blogged and i've finally decided i don't really want to abandon my blog. but i've been thinking of switching to livejournal. which?

i found 3 roses missing from my bouquet of 10 and discovered they've been thrown away with the mould growing on it. i wasn't too happy since the bouquet shrank further in size, since it already did so when they roses died and dried up.

Did this poem last night;

Gutter flowers

Once you gave me dandelions
Random stalks from your backyard
They were so beautiful that I blushed-
I thought the dandelions were roses.

Roses were red, violets are blue
Sugar is sweet, so were you.

The dandelions were ephemeral
I forgot they were from your backyard
I forgot that blush was because
Your smile whispered you loved me.

Once you gave me dandelions
Random stalks plucked too carelessly
They were just from your backyard
Dandelioins will never be roses.

Gutter flowers, just gutter flowers.

2007-04-14T18:45:00.000+08:00

i went out with gracie to check out and support her campus superstar friend, and he's hot((: ah, but i do feel sorry for him cos i think he's not making it through this round (20 out of 60 contestants) from the way he sang. i felt super awkward in the crowd of ah lians/ah bengs/fanatics/cheena people/fangirls and fanboys. gracie and i decided to stand at the side, away from the baricades thronged with screaming young things. and i do hope we don't appear on tv cos there were quite a few mediacorp cameras floating around. i will never, never, go to such event (cheena or not) again. shudder.

after that we made our way down to gracie's and the tennis court, rather unfortunately, was locked, so we headed for the gym. i ran 4.6km this time! whoo! although i was trying to get past 5 km, i think i'm still quite happy(: i think i'm turning into some exercise freak however. and being too weight obssessed isn't exactly good either.

2007-04-13T20:06:00.000+08:00

i've been thinking about my behaviour and how i carry myself, as well as the relationships around me, and it struck me that i'm turning too shallow and materialistic. i think i'm starting to indulge in worldly idle conversations which bring no gain and i'm too easily turned off by small issues, although i still maintain that i do get angry over most matters not worth getting angry of. I was thinking about this afternoon, if i was too childish and mean towards my best friend in the stadium. just over a small matter. which of i do feel rather guilty about now. and my moodswings are common and ever so predictably unpredictable. it makes me rather depressed come to think about it. about my current moodswings and childishness and shallowness and pettiness, that is. i hate this part of my life. where i lack maturity or drop one level down in it. i feel like what i was back then in my kiddish-gossipy years. it seems so easy to change for the worse than for the better overnight. sigh.

2007-04-13T18:21:00.000+08:00

Went to gracie's again after school yesterday and as usual, we went to the gym. jogged 4.2 km non-stop on the treadmill. yay(: i haven't jogged that far for a long time. and did some workouts with the other equipments and i think i pulled my left calve muscle badly. but i am so proud of myself. yay again!(:

Tomorrow's maths classes end at 10 and i'm going out with gracie to support her friend who got through to some campus superstar thing. after which, i'm making my way down to her house again to play tennis. whee. i love tennis and i think i might consider picking that as my CCA in college.

had sports day today and the whole school made their way to the stadium. the event was supposed to commence at 2 and end at 5.30, but we were released at 4 instead after sitting around doing nothing and receiving news that the sports day event had been postponed due to warning of lighting around the area. such wasted time...man.

2007-04-08T21:52:00.000+08:00

i jus vomited dinner out. a box of hor fun. i think my appetite's smaller than usual now. why oh why.

went to macritchie with dad and mum and we ran seperately. no, mum walked. so anyway, i think my fitness sucks big time now. but that's besides the point. while i was jogging the usual route, i trailed behind this man. how retarded cos i didn't realise i was going the wrong way. when i came out into the high way i found my surroundings unfamiliar. apparently i went the longer route and came out way before the usual exit. whatever, i just walked down the highway. yes, walked. i stopped jogging after exiting the forested part. hence my fitness sucks. but that's still besides the point. anyway, my parents thought i was kidnapped or something because i took forever to reach the end since i was walking.

the plants along the highway were nice. some had disease though.

2007-04-07T18:07:00.000+08:00

yesterday was great. just great. here's why.

went out after church with Aileen, zz and zy, sam and gloria to the esplanade for coffee and it was nice(: i made my way back home by 6 and was eating dinner with grandparents and mum when she found out that she had a missed call on her hp. was aunt trying to get her so mum called her back. and aunt said she had two pto tickets my aunt's boss gave to my aunt that she couldn't make it to that she wanted my mum to have. and my mum was too tired and i ended up watching it with jo. so i rushed with jo to dover to collect the tickets and then to esplanade again by 8 pm.

HEAR HEAR:

I WATCHED THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA CATEGORY A SEATS (for free, no, FOR FREE). WHOOSH TO FIRST CLASS SEATS((:

it was my first and best musical ever. we sat just under the chandelier lights that were supposed to drop down to stage and when it did drop it was as if it was going to crash down into us. this is friggin cool. had a 15 min break outside standing among formally-dressed adults who looked like big bosses of big companies and the waiter went "ladies may i get you a drink?"

oh how sweet...

"may i know what drinks are provided?"
"oh water, orange juice, fruit punch, pepsi, sprite, red and white wine."
"white wine please thank you."

underaged drinking(:

2007-04-05T20:20:00.000+08:00

yes! a long weekend is what i need(to clear my accumulated homework). i doubt i will be enjoying it though. i think am turning into some muggerdog or such. i have to. and i'm horribly stressed out. help.

was supposed to have training today but when we reached the hall the nets weren't set up. apparently cos the school changed the lock system to the storage room where we keep all the nets and shuttlecocks and the OM who was holding on to the new pair of keys wasn't in school but at a bank. ali, gracie and i decided not to wait for the arrival of the OM so we made our way down to gracie's condominium in PR. and being girls, we decided to work out in the gym. whee. it was rather satisfying. decided to play tennis with gracie and her dad after the gym workout. her dad was laughing at ali and i, he thinks we're hilarious. probably cos we were holding the racket in a ridiculous way and hitting the tennis balls all over the place. and some almost flew over the fence. it is difficult switching from badminton to tennis. grrr. but i did get the service part while ali was still struggling to get a ball over the net(though she protests and still claims she serves well). rather unfortunately(or maybe not) i smashed a ball right into ali's face when i was just standing within 2m radius from her. mouth to be exact. according to her, the impact travelled from her jaw to her ears which began to swell like big apples by then. (alright, cancel the swelling part. i was just fooling around:)

took 53 back and for the second time in my life, another 53 broke down. the bus friggin broke down when i was rushing back lest my mum frowns again upon my late arrival home. had to transfer to another and got a free ride in the end. 5353535353. i am dead tired now. with one hellava weekend to complete my homework. damn.

2007-03-31T22:22:00.000+08:00

i woke up pretty much stressed out this morning. and was in a bloody mood. apparently i dreamt of composition writing tests with me trying so hard to pick one out of at least 10 writing topics. horrrrrorrrr. why do i keep dreaming about school work and such. i dreamt i flunk my history exam before, then i had a dream of me furiously doing math. i hate school. i hate work. i hate numbers. i hate words. period.

2007-03-31T22:10:00.000+08:00

i almost chose a skin with just a line across the whole page. i think this will do though.

2007-03-30T20:28:00.000+08:00

[just to let you guys know how busy i have been and will be this year, i just do NOT have time to blog more than once a week. because the only time i'm online is on the weekends. so PLEASE do not ask me to update, since i'll just will be (a little) pissed off.]

alright, it's a friday again. time to paint the town red! hmm, nope. maybe not in my current state. i wish i could tie those kids up and gag their mouths. yes, another friday night means another bible study meeting held over at my house with my the uncles and aunties bringing their stupid kids to our house. and being all so kind and nicey as usual, when the stupid kids asked to play in my room, i allowed them in (and even switched on the air-con for them for that matter). how rather amusing was it when one of the kids said to me "can you go out of this room because i want to play." (strike one) the minute i went out to get the laptop from the room across mine, i found myself being locked out of MY VERY OWN ROOM by one of those stupid kids. i had to knock very loudly to ask in. no hint of being apologetic?! (strike two) sitting down at my table now typing this blog entry, i have stupid kids sitting directly behind my roller-chair and pushing me all the way into the table cos they are too obssessed with their stupid Monopoly game and they're shifting their stupid butts into my chair. (strike three) how much noise does Monopoly make? it doesn't. only when stupid kids are playing it. (strike four)

I'm done with this. the mp4 is blasting in my ears since there's absolutely nothing i can do to stop them since their parents might kill me if i actually did what i long wanted to do to them. oh wait, is that a kid jumping on my bed like he's on crack? i know my bed is springy kid, but get just the crap out of here. i won't swear i promise.

2007-03-23T21:34:00.000+08:00

another mundane week which just brings more work. i really do hope time can just speed up. i have only this much online time to blog this short an entry. it has been a rather tiring week for me, especially since i went for training after a month or so of hiatus. and my back muscles ache alot now. damn, i finally got to play with muscledude. he went "whoa, nice one" or "good ball!" afew times. omgomg, how rarely does he speak yet he praised my playing. and JK says he doesn't exactly think us girls play well, so tell me how cool is that. he is (argh) hotness. heh. damn i am obssessing over another badminton guy like yangyang and SSS again.

just realised i have a problem with nail-biting again. i bit my thumb yesterday and it bled, which took me quite some time to find out about the bloody thumb. and yet again this afternoon i forgot about that poor thumb and its nail and i err, bit it again. hence the rebleeding. whoosh. that is sickerningly sick and hmm, unhygienic i know. i should get myself a pacifier shouldn't i.

2007-03-16T21:25:00.000+08:00

i just came back from tuition. feels pretty good after not attending a single grp tuition class for at least 5 years. And the new uni grad teacher is cool. just cool. i feel pretty comfortable around him, unlike when i had tution many years back and when the teacher was constantly swinging the cane infront of me and literally hitting my palm with it. ouch. but this teacher is nice(: and patient and funny. i like tuition. and i made a new friend. we suck as much as each other in science.

my wireless room phone has just been replaced with a non-wireless one. how interesting. apparently cos the house phone bill was high, dad says it amounts to approximately 50 cents everyday. hey! how cool is that! and my bobo's handphone bill could be at least triple that. what happens to him? nothing. so this is my dad's preventive measure taken against me from talking on my bed till the wee hours of the night, actually eleven, and i am now driven to talk sprawled on the floor since the phone wire can only reach that far from the table.

2007-03-11T21:06:00.000+08:00

went for ali's bbq yesterday and 12 of us combined to get ali a zara top and pull and bear ultra mini skirt. heh, A4 size. i had to try that skirt on before buying it and i felt that my modesty was totally outraged. but i still bought it for ali anyway. my friend was laughing at me cos i was i kept tugging the skirt down. it's shorter than short. shorter than 30 cm short. and her dad asked her to wear tights underneath after she showed it to him...my mum'll kill me for wearing that mini if i bought it.

i have decided to mug ultra hard from now on to prove those teachers that i'm not as dumb as they think i am. and after i get the o level results i can laugh their sorry asses off.

2007-03-08T20:36:00.000+08:00

ah. school ends today. i did hmm, extremes for my exams. the very good and the very bad. sigh.
i had a rather eventful past 2 weeks, or rather, past month. i haven't been eating/sleeping well that i think i'm having bouts of giddy spells and i think i felt like i was gonna faint maybe twice? bad health. lots of stress. and lots of hormonal imbalance. i guess. my mood's been flactuating quite a lot these days. had my fair share of blow-tops and tears. this is so emo. damn.

2007-03-02T21:24:00.000+08:00

2 weeks w/o the computor. man i love this. i think i'm no longer addicted. my exams are just over a few days back so i'm back on. but only the weekends that is. I am gonna slug it out for my Os. like shiet. i didn't really score well this examination.

Got caught by the DM today for ankle socks. oh shoosh, i merely forgot to pull them up before walking pass him. name and class was taken down, phew, strike one, 2 more times before i get detention i think.

2007-02-19T20:36:00.000+08:00

my exams are coming this friday. so much for the long cny weekend break. i have been limited to the use of the laptop on weekends only. guess it works for me pretty well. i don't wanna kiss my 'O's goodbye like my dad said. and therefore i won't be blogging so often now. or chatting so much online/on the phone either.

my family has been surviving well without a domestic helper for the past 5 days. it's rather interesting to see the men in the house mopping the floor and washing some dishes. but i still have a lot of readjusting to do after been so relient on a helper for the past i don't-know-when.

speaking about family, my relationship with them is still, hmm, how do i put it, abit unstable. basically because i am still horribly upset with my dad and his haughtiness. (but it's more than that trust me) i was able to sort a tiny wee bit with my mum while having a talk with her this morning, when my dad entered the kitchen and i stopped talking about my issues altogether. thankfully any idea of running away from home hasn't crept into my poor stressed-out brain.

2007-02-16T15:53:00.000+08:00

alot seems to just flash past all of a sudden. i am stuck in a whirlwind of thoughts. penned my first haiku down a few days back. -Dandelion

fell sick the day before vday...i vomited 5 times in less than 1 km. went to school the next day but left for home in the morning. so my vday wasn't exactly nice to start with. although my friends were all exceptionally nice on vday and i received a really sweet vday surprise, the night had to end with my mum shouting at me. when i was sick. and why? because she didn't like one of my vday gifts i received. it really isn't my fault is it?

and last night, regarding the gift i received, she accused me off being someone i wasn't. i felt so lost and angered by her remarks that took me by surprise. how can she carelessly say that of her daughter? yea, she said a lot more things i can't fit in here. the angst of being me...

2007-02-11T12:55:00.000+08:00

i felt really down yesterday to the point i almost broke down on the way home after school. i had to go back cos i had quite some accumulated maths hw which the teacher was really getting pissed with me at for not handing in. well, quite a few other classmates were supposed to go to but i was the only one who turned up. got the teacher to teach me on the latest topic i missed cos of badminton competition. but it turned out my brain was functioning really slowly yesterday and i took 2 hrs to almost complete an exercise. partially because i felt pressurized by the teacher's one-to-one attention. and i lacked the confidence. so i had the teacher calling me "slow" throughout the lessson. which really discouraged me further. and then her 4 year old son came around. he wanted to go home and kept asking his mum "why so slow?". she would simply reply the same, "cos this jiejie is very slow." and then her son was playing around with some pencil or something and wanted to playfully hit something, i can't remember. his mum told him, "don't beat, beat jiejie..." this is so amusing. i felt like an object.

of course he didn't beat me. but i just felt the lowest of the lowest. and when i left the school i felt horribly stupid. retardedly stupid. stupidly stupid. i felt as if i shouldn't even be doing amaths. cos my stupid brain didn't fit it. all of a sudden i was depressed. i dont' know what hit me. i have been feeling so down these days but coupled with this humiliation was just...i don't know.

back at home last night my mum who was called up by my teacher to inform her about my unhanded in hw, started to nag about doing maths. it struck me again. for that moment i hated maths. i hated being stupid. i hated my mum not knowing how i felt. and i just lay on the floor staring out of the window not answering her. which got her really mad. and when she finally got me to do my maths, i did it like i was brain-dead. and my mum shouted at me. i swear this was the first time i never wanted to bother about maths. at all. my mum got so mad she yelled about my attitude and how i didn't wanna wake up. the thing was that, even when she yelled i didn't feel upset. i just stared blankly. i had zero, absolutely no inspiration, no motivation, no mood to touch and look at my amaths text. so my mum just thought i was proud and lazy. that was the whole thing last night. i just lay in bed and teared till 1 before my splitting headache came around and i fell into light sleep.

i didn't feel like going to church today either. i just feel so depressed.

2007-02-09T20:39:00.000+08:00

yay(: i past this week without the use of the com. i decided i needed some discipline cos i realised i've been switching on the com everyday after school. the best thing is, my mum decided to keep the laptop from my desk and not allow me to use it. it helped my quest to get back some discipline in a way. i've never been more happy about the laptop being confiscated. i've finally ended a whole 2 weeks of stupid tests and now my teacher's hounding me for my accumulated amaths homework. she says to go to school tomorrow for those who frequently don't hand in her work. oops. by rights i shouldn't be online but doing my work. oh well. i shall complete it tomorrow i promise. but i don't wanna go to school. i think she threatened that she'd call my parents if i don't turn up. heh. i'll hand it in to her on monday.

today's the release of the 'O' level results. it adds on to my stress thinking that i'd be either crying or jumping jubilantly in a years time or less even. haven't been sleeping well these days with my mind in a constant race. the minute i turn off the lights and lie in bed my mind starts to wonder. it travels so far to the point where i imagine the horrendous results i'll be getting for the 'O's. reality is really quite sinking into me that i need to pull up my socks.

still, stress is forever in me these days such that i cannot have a good night's rest everyday, even when i'm physically tired. it's like, you want to sleep when you're all exhausted but your mind just keeps on going and going till you fall into light sleep after an hour or two of hard thinking with your ever-racing brain of yours. and you fall asleep soley because you are almost brain-dead from hard thinking. cheers to many months more of such.

2007-02-04T20:43:00.000+08:00

i've been out shopping whole day long yesterday and just now. and my feet hurt so much. and what did i buy so far? some jelly beans and metallic silly putty from Toys 'R' Us yesterday. i did no buying so far. and cny is coming. argh. i have only one new skirt. i think my feet are swollen now:(

2007-02-02T23:09:00.000+08:00

i just had durian cake for my bobo's birthday and mine (belated one). we celebrate mostly our birthdays together since it's just one week apart. i think this is our sweetest celebration yet. it's really the first time my bro and i had a nice bobo-sis photo shot since we were like 6 years old? we probably had such distaste for taking snapshots together in the past. and bobo smeared some ultra neon green cream onto my cheek. (equivilent to more pimples) i don't know. we are closer now. just as i hoped for when i was 13. cos we were apparently going through the your-sibling-sucks phase of life and we didn't really talk. tonight has made my day((:

2007-02-02T14:35:00.000+08:00

Paint a portrait of smeared colours
Just that the colours are only shades
Of grey and of black.
A mere scheme to alter your tattered milieu
Into some unpredictable work of art
Have you not heard?
Colours lie.
They really do.

2007-02-01T18:15:00.000+08:00

i do not like child celebrities. one dumb kiddo just pissed me off today. i mean like so what if you're acting in the current channel 8 drama and get stares everywhere you go? and she happens to be a badminton mate of mine. we had some problems with the doubles arrangement. we lacked her actual player who was on MC. so we had denise to partner cx for the doubles pairing the previous time. but denise didnt' played well and our whole team decided to replace denise with someone else. everyone's unsure about putting sara in but we decide in the end that sara should be partnering cx. the judges are pressing for us to fill in the form cos they need it almost immediately. and sadly being the captain i have to fill up the form for the competition pairing. the next moment cx struts in and exclaims that i shouldn't have filled in the form consulting her. and to think that everyone was surrounding me and discussing about this arrangement while she was stupidly somewhere else stroking. and she and i start to argue. i tell her we all arranged for the best of the team. she demands to know why her partner keeps changing throughout the competition. she wants denise to partner her but she doesn't say that. she scolds me for not consulting her on the change of her partner instead.
LOOK HERE CX. did you think i wanted to just lightly fill in that bloody form and place any partner with you? and where were you when everyone was rushing and discussing about your partnering? if you really wanted to change you would have spent the time wasted on arguing with me to approach the judges to get the form back for ammendments. you just had to push the bloody blame on me. and did you even ask why i wrote sara's name there? your mentality sucks basically. as long as you don't get your oringinal partner you tell yourself you can't play cos the coordination isn't there. heck i can even play doubles with anyone on the team. as long as you know the bloody positions you can play with anyone. so you tell yourself sara sucks as doubles that she should stick to singles and she won't wanna play cos she has weak mental strength as well. i filled sara's name in there also with the knowledge from cliantha that sara is way much better than denise. and you lose the game cos sara's affected after all your attention grabbing sobbing that gathers everyone arouund you. you lose the game too cos you just keep telling yourself sara sucks pairing with you no matter what. you lose the game cos you think i forced this pairing, which i honestly tell you i didn't. all the blame falls on me ya? if you were being pressed by everyone to fill in the form and with people strongly recommending sara to partner you instead of denise and after asking for everyone's aproval till you almost fall dead from confusion...you would understand. do you really think i want our team to lose. tell me bloody child celebrity. just because i'm the only one who argues with you about this arrangement and speaking out and filling the form, you blame me for making you lose. cut the crap. you should have been there in that freaking discussion and you would have agreed to it as well. oh wait, i forgot, you only want denise as your partner. everyone had a part in the decision. i'm merely the one filling up that dreaded form cos i'm the captain. you blame me for that? know your facts before you roll your stupid pair of bulging eyes at me, burst out in tears after arguing with me to show everyone who's to be blamed, and strut you stupid ass infront of my face. you are not up there. you are a still a bloody pupil like all of us in our stupid school and i don't care about your stupid celebrity status. get a grip of life.
alas. i shall not brood on it anymore. she affected my match. period.

2007-01-31T21:21:00.000+08:00

these week is like shiet. like shiet. with the competition 3 times this week, and one shifted forward to this Sat. MY WEEKEND! HOW CAN THAT BE! so many tests going on, accumulated homework from last week which i have just completed today. or at least i think i have. and i haven't been online for the past..1..2..3 days!i think it's a big achievement. i'm such a loser. i think i have this slight addiction for going online. basically it's go home, bath, turn on the com and go online for the rest of the day. and neglect homework. but i'm so proud of myself today. i went back home and mugged abit. ok, much more than any other day and only went online at 9pm though the laptop was infront of me all the while, while doing hw.
oh ya. i haven't boast about my bobo's birthday present to me. (if you did't know, i've recently started refering to my bro as bobo. i wonder why, just more fluent for me i guess?) it's just that i love how sweet my bobo is when it's my birthday. considering how little we talk to each other throughout the rest of the 264 days. he gave me 2 bottles or body gel from The Bodyshop. and i am totally addicted to smelling the ultra sweet and fruity fruit fragrance. last year he gave me a customised present with my name. the year before he gave me a music box and i can't remember what. when i was p6 i woke up one afternoon after my nap and found my room decorated by him with a banner (made by him) across the room. how sweet can he be(: so this year i decided to be nice to him. his birthday is tomorrow and i'll be his sweetest little sister. yay!

2007-01-29T16:43:00.000+08:00

it's skirt-flying day today. it's good that we wear shorts underneath our school skirts. the winds blew pretty bad. and i almost froze this morning.

2007-01-28T14:16:00.000+08:00

someone just passed my mum a cd named "story telling by joanna cheng". ended up to be one of my old cell group member. i think it was like 6 years back when i went over to their house and her daughter and i were still rather kiddish. we recorded some story onto their stereo about this good queen and her princess daughter being kidnapped by an evil queen. so that cell member transfered that file into a cd for me. i just listened to the whole 8 min story with my mum laughing at me. it's complete with character voices and sound effects too. omg, i can't believe i was so lame when i was a kid. horribly dramatic. there was an applause in the end with me humbly thanking my revered audience. hahaha.

2007-01-27T20:46:00.000+08:00

went out to ps with ali to shop. i had a tiff with my dad this morning that's why the sudden urge to shop. walked around with her for almost a day and i finally bought a skirt. yes, a skirt. my mum now complains it's too short after showing it to her. oh well.
before i went out, ali called. her reason behind that? she was just as freaked out as the previous night plus she wanted to bathe. which equals to me talking to her on her hp set on loudspeaker in her bathroom. she didn't dare to bathe alone in her toilet so i was virtually there with her. how sick. (i think i heard her shower on and the water flowing even) i am really shocked at this new discovery. a rather cowardice best friend of mine i have here. ha. tell me ali, what should i do? i am brawling on the floor with laughter now.

2007-01-26T23:38:00.000+08:00

went to gracie's sissy's birthday bbq at their new house. had so much prawns i think even ali will have swollen legs full of rashes tmr cos she's allergic to them and she still ate so much of it. watched a horror movie and went back around 10. here's the hilarious part.
ali and i went left gracie's house for the bustop nearby. when we reached the first floor of gracie's block and was about to step out of the gate, ali screamed "omg!!" likewise after hearing that i turned to my left and jumped. turned out to just be a man standing there in white.
that's not it. ali clung on to my arm and was shrieking away rather cowardy that she was afraid. i felt like i was leading a blind man across the road. the catch is, i am the most fearful horror movie noobie in the group, and ali watches like a ton more than me. in fact, this was my first full horror movie. of course i freaked out while watching, but there's no whatsoever after-effects on me. to see ali clinging on to my arm is like seeing zhanming with a girl, if you know how uncharmingly weird zhanming is, that is. and earlier on i was sharing with ali my umbrella and to keep under the umbrella, MY umbrella, i had to cling onto ali's arm since she was holding on to it. and she yelled at me for that. how sad. how terribly sad. so check out what she was doing to me after the movie.
and i had lead her, by hand, to the bustop hardly 100m away which was brightly lit with a petrol kiosk behind. and with lotsa peeps at the bustop as well. i had to miss my dear bus that came before hers, for her own freaking bus to arrive, so that i wouldn't board my own bus first leaving her behind at the bustop. oh great. she just confessed to me that while we were walking to the bustop she was pretty afraid some guy would pounce out of the bushes.
i am. facinated.
anyway on my bus journey back, i came to realisation that my right vision was failing me. in a way... it just didn't seem clear in that eye. so i reached for my eyeball and fingered it with my index finger cos i thought the contact lens shifted somewhere in my eye. it's like when you just place the contacts in your eye and adjust it with your finger. that's how i did it, without a mirror. and i blinked. and blinked. and blink. still blur. and i fingered it again. i am amazed i didn't go blind. here's why.
when i reached home i went straight to the mirror to check my right eye out. bham! i don't see anything in my right eye. so i finger my eye even more in desperation. i had to find that lens! 1/2 hr later my right eyeball turns slightly red and teary. so all along i had been fingering not my shift contact lens, but my eyeball itself. direct contact. yuck. oh well, i guess it dropped off on the bus. BUT think, if it's stuck behind my eye socket! i don't wanna go blind after waking up tmr with a contact lens in a eye. they say you can't sleep with them on. ali says to test-sleep and check out if my eye turns red tmr morning. great idea.

2007-01-25T17:08:00.000+08:00

i just came back from competition against sng. of 5 games, we won 1. hooray eh? sng being the top 4 in nationals. but they sent their friggin reserve. and the game won was a stupid sec 1 vs me. how insulting can they be? my game was the most watched game in the entire hall with the whole sng team cheering their cute lil sec one while i am the bad person bullying her. well, the second game basically sucks. she scored so many net balls from tycoism, which got the whole hall noisey with cheering. they were like "eh sec one vs sec four!" so the second match was a disaster with her gaining alot of points. but i won the match anyway. but still! i could have trashed her in the second game. i heard their coach joking with our teacher "we put the sec one to let you guys have a win((:" what a nice joke. now they think a sec four sucks that much to allow even their sec one player to gain that many points in the second match. i could have i could have i could have. i feel insulted. nevermind, i shall play my other 3 games with pride and to my fullest. lest they place a sec 1 there to insult our team. Rwarrrrrr.

2007-01-24T15:44:00.000+08:00

what a sucky day at school today, what a big load of homework, what a birthday.
i am gonna get buried in my pile of accumulated homework. and competition starts tomorrow. isn't that great? it sucks to be 16 today.
basically, i went to school not feeling too well so i didn't take PE. and to top it up, i've been pretty moody these days i realised. so anyway, my english teacher has been hounding me for me homework, and the maths teacher will soon follow anyway. so i have decided to complete all my homework once and for all, with about 5 tests drawing near from this friday starting.
as i was about to leave classroom, a fellow classmate of mine called out to me. "happy birthday jo, i wanted to wish you this morning, but i didn't dare..." am i that scary? amusing...while i was on the bus journey back later, i almost lost K's 50 dollar bill he gave me for the team's drinks. was sitting down in the bus when someone tapped me on the shoulder and pointed to the floor beside my sit. viola, 50 bucks. must have slipped out of my pocket as i reached to take out my bus card. the birthday girl's luck huh.

2007-01-23T20:54:00.000+08:00

happy birthday jo. you're 16 (at least in a day's time). you shall be entitled to go clubbing and watch NC16 movies (legally).
i am moody now. moodswings! argh. had training earlier on when K gave me 50 bucks to spend on just drinks, isotonic//glucose drinks for the team. wow. i am stunned. "you take this money and buy those glucose drinks to drink before the match." i didn't know he's that cool.

2007-01-21T23:15:00.000+08:00

I just had my yearly ritual birthday dinner with my parents. early one though. ritual cos i have this odd practice of eating chilli crabs for my dinner as a celebration. (take it for my birthday cake:) i remember posting one entry about this too last year after a chilli crab dinner. go read, haha. i am 16 in 3 days time!!! i suddenly feel a rejuvination of excitment in me. must be those crabs i had. anyway i was telling my mum about being 16. and how i love my raging hormones. which only got my parents laughing in amusement. and i was bellowing on coffeeshop guys falling for me (rather lustfully, them!) and how i wished yangyang was the one instead of dirty old men. that got them laughing even more. oh well, growing up...part and parcel isn't it?

2007-01-19T21:22:00.000+08:00

had training yesterday and i twisted it while playing with RJ. so now i'm limping about and worrying for my badminton competition in like, 6 days time. argh!!! someone, save my right foot!
just came back from tp open house with ali, guided by her dearest cousin in the arts building. HOTNESS. (not her cousin, his friends) her cousin was pretty cool though, and he brought us around. thank goodness for him or we'd been lost. this whole day was such a rush for me, made 2 of my friends really pissed cos i was so late with my appointments with them. and i had a pretty busy day limping about on one foot. ouch, my foot needs to rest now:(

2007-01-17T16:52:00.000+08:00

I have been so busy these days that i hardly have energy to go online. my birthday's coming in 6 days time and i don't feel excited. 16!! at least not as excited compared to a month ago...weird. My badminton competition has been postponed to the 25th, thank goodness, it always start on or around my birthday. I am so stressed out. with both the competition date nearing and the big O in like, 8-9 months time? what am i doing now?

2007-01-10T20:22:00.000+08:00

i am dead tired, and will be dead shit tired by the end of this week. i went jogging on monday, after perhaps, 3 months of not jogging? and i think i ran a tad too fast that my muscles ached badly the next day. and yesterday, tuesday, was badminton training. even worse muscle ache. today was PE, running up and down the school building. tomorrow's training again and so is friday, while i'm going swimming with jayne on sat. how interesting. my week's filled with physical activities.
fought/quarreled with K during badminton yesterday. the man with that horrible moustache. here's why. the school got him to send us for competition in feb. he's in charge or another cca. and he just barged into the hall yesterday commanding us to do PT, his own kind of weird PT mind you, and started shouting as if he was the coach. hell, even our coach didn't shout that loud. i, being captain, was pissed that some friggin teacher who knew nuts about badminton (he claims he coached the ex national player before but is 55 plus hence he can't play now) was insulting us. as in, he didn't care no shit about how we trained and were trained. he scolded us for playing without doing PT, which actually was stroking, not playing. and he kept correcting our strokes when we didn't see why it needed to be corrected. so i ignored him and continued playing, only to my dismay that he kept repeating himself. got furious, shouted at him, and we engaged in a half hour long argument. ha, after which he kept quite silent. oh how i love K.

2007-01-08T19:33:00.000+08:00

i am turning 16 in 16 days. i think i'm starting to sound old now. after 16 comes 17, then 18 and before i know it, i'd be 20 plus. (isn't this looking a whee bit too far ahead eh) i can't wait to get married at 25. sigh, i am. aging.

2007-01-07T21:37:00.000+08:00

my weekends are now sadly so precious. i hate school. i hate homework. i hate weekdays. and now all the shifting of boxes in my house, the dust, and workers...what a conducive environment to study eh? darn, i sound like i'm whining don't i? i am pissed.

2007-01-05T20:50:00.000+08:00

back from a crapped out day at school. finally the weekend's here. i just got the worst chinese teacher teaching me. not worst in standard, in fact i think she's good, but worst as in, i fear her alot cos my cheena sucks deep shit and she's fieeeerce. rawwww...and she's the cheena HOD. goodness. i was hoping it wasn't her since sec 1, but oh well, it's for the better having her this year i guess. and i have the most bias irritating teacher for physics, the same as last year, and the most useless chem one. useless as in i can't learn anything in her class for nuts. same class, just minus 2 and additional 1 retainee. why man.
school was crap today. (everyday for me i guess) had to stay back for some stuuupid sch orientation thing and attend to my cca booth, which i almost didn't stay back for delibrately cos i was so pissed with the sch's system of handling our cca. and it became and issue later on. sigh. i do hope it's alright now.
am dead tired and stoning infront of the com. bday's in 19 days time. i seriously should have a countdown. (wil dude! i want a present, specifically you! ha, okok, just what ali and i want for V day too:)

2007-01-01T01:49:00.000+08:00

DONT GET DRUNK DONT TOUCH ANYTHING NOT YOURS DONT HYPERVENTILATE DONT POLE DANCE DONT SNORT ERASER DUST DONT FART INTO PEOPLES FACES.

2007-01-01T01:21:00.000+08:00

my first entry of 07 man. have a great 07 my darlings! (ha, although it spells the start of STRESS PERIOD for some of us.) just came home from service. was good, i actually relieved myself of all my stress. Ooo, i can't wait for 08. bday's coming in 23 days time! (: wheeeee...

2006-12-29T15:48:00.000+08:00

christmas was 4 days back, wanted to blog but couldn't. oh well, i shall recount my horrible experience with toddlers that day.Jayne, Rach and I had volunteered with the "child-care" that day so that parents with young kids could listen to the message. the thing is, the only reason why i volunteered was because i thought we'd be handling babies. NOT toddlers. goodness, i absolutely dislike toddlers. which i mentioned specifically. kids from 3 yrs of age onwards start being able to talk back, lie, cheat, and lust over members of the opposite gender. (i'll prove that to you later)started our duty off by blowing balloons. yea, Bob the Builder balloons. well, it was alright since we got the guys in our level to help. and soon, little kids(potatoes) started streaming in, some looked nice to eat, i mean, cute. the guys decided join the care-taking seeing those cute lil things fotunately, because i don't think 3 of us could seriously take on about 20 to 30 such kids. and this kid, she was quiet at the starting, hence i tried being really nice. but guess what? she soon got sticky, (along with her brother) and demanded that i played those pigsie games with them or she wouldn't join in. i'm like, okok, let's form a circle! and then she started making me open sweet wrappers for her, only to request me to throw those wrappers away as well. i'm a poor lil girl now. and soon i get both siblings crawling on my lap and refusing to get up while my face soon gets distorted cos their bones are jabbing into my thigh.her lil bro now wants to pee, so i bring him to the kiddy's toilet, where the doors are only about 1.4m high such that you can peep into the cubicle (so that you can watch that child peeing i guess), and there are no locks to the door. so this lil boy stands infront of the hole, yes, the hole((: and pulls down his pants. *eyes-widen* ok, his back was facing me. and he's position was in the way of the door so i couldn't close it.and the next moment i turn, he's done. i look at him, he to me. *looks down* Oooo, nice aiming boy! the floor was decorated with nice yellow liquid. "flush the toilet now Max." "I don't know how to flush."now he makes his way out of the cubicle while i continue staring at the floor. *tiptoes across the floor to flush* it's really nice to hear that he knows there's a sink for him to wash his hands.and back in that kiddy place... this boy was apparently trying to strip his (girl) friend off her jacket cos she was wearing some spagathi strapped dress. like ewww. he did that throughout the programme infront of the teacher and infont of me. total oblivion. i am horrified. kids these days are of a way different generation. i mean, i bet my level wasn't like that when we were their age. ok, we had catfights, but that's basically all. you don't have skirt-chasers running loose in class, nor do you have dirty fellas who don't know how to pee, pee anywhere but where they should pee in. and you sure don't have shrewed kids ordering you around.i'll make sure my kid (in 10++ years time) doesn't turn out like anyone of them. yuck.
just went out with daddy to j8 for our "special" lunch as promised from him. was funny cos we were walking around in cirlces trying to decide where to eat. landed up at Cafe Cartel. ate our romantic lunch at a two-sitter. YJ, his bro and his mum came along coincidentally. daddy says he's handsome which i agree. but i still don't like him. haha, bad memories from previous class. went on to buy my bag after lunch. daddy chose it! daddy has good taste.

2006-12-21T11:37:00.000+08:00

good comunication is important. that's what i learnt. ( and ali, thank you anyway for initiating that conference cos i don't think i'd ever do something about it and just let it die off:)
argh, haven't been doing my hw now. i haven't even started. damn. i need inspiration. where do i get it? haven't been doing anything fruitful and productive these past 2 weeks other than just stoning infront of the com whole day long. friggin plaster keeps hooking the keys of this laptop as i type.
went out with ali and obs gang yesterday, caught a movie Eeeeragon or iragon. that's how wh pronounces it. the guys were busy snatching some popcorn from ali. lol. i think eragon is hot. ahh, hotness. and i liked the other guy in the show too, but i can't remember his name. and ali, eragon is mine, thank you very much(: the show's basically good overall, niceeee infact. heard it was written by a 16 or 18 year-old boy. and i think there'd be number 2 coming out. i shall go watch.

2006-12-18T23:09:00.000+08:00

i bought my baby a few days back. cost me $525, but it's a deal cos it's usually much more than that. almost snipped off a piece of flesh from my left index finger this afternoon while cutting the stems of some golden rose thing i made for some christmas gift tag. and i'm typing without my poor left finger which is really slowing my typing down. darn, it hurts like shit. blood literally dripped out. that deep a wound. yeowch:(

2006-12-15T14:39:00.000+08:00

I'm back from sf retreat! oh i did enjoy it alot, and being the 2nd I/C for the group was really an experience. in fact, i think i spoke more freely and openly during the sharing. probably cos i felt this responsibility to lead my younger grp members. overall, this whole retreat was a whole lot of fun!

2006-12-11T09:12:00.000+08:00

"do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure. children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of Life---so that i may boast on the day of Christ that i did not run or labour for nothing." Philipians 2:14-16

ahhh, that's our sf retreat's theme verse, and that was written from memory. yay, discovered that a younger generation has taken over the jobs of being team ICs in the retreat. like me(: it's my first time i'm gonna be a 2nd IC. more responsibilty i guess. the only thing i protest to is having to listen to all the messages. *sheepish grin* in the past when i was just an ordinary member to any grouping, i'd just erm, leave (some) messages to the group ICs to listen/interprete/share. so now i'm taking over their job. whoosh.

->won't be back till 15th! Pay day is coming ali(: do you hear the shopping malls calling for us?

2006-12-09T18:26:00.000+08:00

was abit drowsy yesterday, but woke up feeling sick this morning. just got out of bed after 6 hrs in it. argh, sf retreat! it's on monday. gotten a flu i think, along with a slight fever. darnit, i hate falling sick. who does? i do hope i can recover in time for monday:(

2006-12-08T15:06:00.000+08:00

Went out with Jayne swimming at her country club. haven't done so for a long time since last hols, where we used to try swim as often as we could just to get fit and TANNED. haha, but seriously, i'm starting to get worried about skin cancer after much info feeding from her mum who brought us to the country club. Swam 28 laps instead of our usual 30, but i must say i'm surprised cos i only swam 14 laps yesterday and couldn't do more cos yesterday was my first time swimming after so long. *looks down* oh yay(: i see a tann. and i gorged myself right after the swim. exercise=no exercise. just great.

2006-12-07T13:48:00.000+08:00

went out this morning at aroung 10 to swim, but just as i was walking to the swimming complex, the wind started blowing and the whole sky was filled with huge black clouds. NOO! so i made my way 20 mins down another swimming complex nearby, and it rained. great. decided to go to the library at that area to wait for the rain to stop.
finally, it did. and i swam happily for only half and hour and i realised i've been swimming in drizzle for the past 10 mins. so technically i was swimming without rain for just 20 mins. argh. got out of the swimming pool and left for home.
was at the coffeshop near my home to buy food back for dad and i. the usual mix-ed meat and vegetables store which i've only patronised for 3 times so far, but somehow some of them recognise me. and one guy was rather "friendly" to me for the past 2 times. today he was, erm, way too friendly. took out his hp and asked for my number. omgomgomg, that's sick. he's almost twice my age i think, and desperate. DESPERATE. should have given him some neighbourhood police post number. ha, of course i didn't do that. and of course i didn't give him my number. ewww. he seems beng.

2006-12-06T22:08:00.000+08:00

Jo no longer works. so does ali. don't ask why, it's a long story. and i apologise for that string of obscene profanities i've been writing lately. Cheers(:

2006-12-06T17:30:00.000+08:00

today was a very good day at work with just ali, Hag and I! yay! i was so happy that i almost cried. FOR REAL.
cos Hag told her fellowship not to go for work since there was us. she probably wanted to make FULL use of us and labour. i swear this is the fuckiest person i've met. she made ali and i leave De LaSalle to deliver some books for her, to a customer's home, when it was her job. i bet she didn't trust us with the money left in the classroom. Asked us to buy lunch for her at McD too.
She ate her meal rather VERY slowly while the queue for us to attend to was getting longer outside. i'm quite sure she was enjoying her meal. for the rest of the 8 hrs at work, she made us attend to the customers outside at the counter while she sat inside the classroom doing god-knows-what.

The Hag

Hag: girls, there's cutomers outside.
Us: ok. *walks out of classroom to attend to customers*
(done with countless cutomers one after another and walks back into classroom to take a rest,but before we were able to do so...)
Hag: there's customers outside, go help them. *still doing nothing in the classroom*
(a line of customer queue to buy books along the 3 long tables at the counter. there's only US attending to so many.)
me: *walks into classroom to get books according to one customer's booklist, and sees more customers coming. which in simple, basic logic, means we required extra assistance at the counter.* (apparently Hag was unpacking files from their packaging cos they were "running out".) Aunty, there's people outside!
Hag: *pretends she didn't hear*
Me: Aunty, we need help. there's people outside!
Hag: *pretends she didn't hear again and continues to "pack" files*
Me: *raises voice to VERY audible speech and repeats*
Hag: *finally turns as if she just heard me* how many? *looks at me instead of outside, towards the counter where customers were waiting* not many right? ok, nevermind, just let them wait, doesn't matter. *turns back to her meal*
Us: *scrambles to help out as much as we can while Hag does nothing about it. finally manages to clear off the whole lot of customers by ourself*
(when we got back into the class room, Hag got us to do something else for her until the next few customers appeared outside at the counter.)
Hag: there's people outside.
Us: oh, ok. *attends to 2 customers who took particularly long to go through every damn thing on their book list*
Me: *going through a booklist with my customer while i desperately looked into classroom to try get Hag to help the other customer in-line who had been waiting for super long for assistance. i was worried that the customer waiting would discover an ultra-free person leisurely strolling around the classroom who was supposed to help, while he doesn't get any help with his books cos the other two bookshop people were busy attending to their own customers. that was definitely ridiculous*
Me: *goes back into classroom to "plead" for help*
Hag: *says the same to to me again* (by now i realized she was indirectly telling me "hey, let them wait, after your customer's done buying books, then attend to that customer waiting in queue cos i'm not going outside to help. let them wait, and you'll can attend to them once you're done with your current customer.)
(but she finally goes out of classroom and helps out after "finally" realizing that the queue wasn't getting shorter.)
Hag: (while standing outside attending to her customer, looks at us...) can you help me get this (books/stationary) from the classroom?
Us: (we were walking into the classroom to get the books for our customers when she requested us to help her get those items from her customers booklist. why couldn't she walk back into the classroom herself to get those books? we had our own customers to handle yea?) err, ok.
(time passed, realized ali and i were standing most of the 8 hrs. i think we only sat down at most 1hr in all to rest while the whole time was dedicated to standing. towards the end of the day...)
Hag: can you move those boxes of books and put them back into their correct places in the classroom? *makes us pack up everything while she counts # of 50 dollar notes we gotten from sales today, packs her own bag, and does no more than that*
(when we were about to leave...)
Hag: take this bag and throw it outside the dumping corner before you leave too.
Us: *smiles at her* bye auntie! :)
(takes our leave with that big black rubbish-bag.)

and of course, *shouts "bye effer!" when we're out of the classroom* yes, loud enough for her to hear, but i bet she doesn't know what we meant, or better still, i bet she didn't know we were refering to her.

2006-12-05T18:00:00.000+08:00

left for work at 7, went to ps with ali for McD's breakfast and received good service from the manager himself. made our day for starters. (we knew that travelling time would take us at least an hr but still took our time at breakfast for obvious reasons; we don't care if we're late everyday now:) 2 bloody guys there however, walked passed our table and waved and "hello"ed! us. we didn't even know them.
reached workplace at 9.10 instead of 8.30, started attending to customer straight away while that bloody woman chit-chatted with her 50 something kakis. somehow customers keep coming to us at one end of the counter instead of those aunties' gathering at the other end. i guess those aunties took advantage of this and left all the customers to us throughout the day. i am bloody pissed of. ali and i were bullied. AGAIN. yea, bullied.

#1:
bloody Hag and company (of fellow gossipers who gossip whole day long about their colleagues and the boss herself) moved into the nicely ventilated classroom with fans, while we sat outside waiting for/upon customers.
#2:
a few customers gave me some stupid slip of paper or reciept to claim their books, and i had no idea what to do with them. so there, i refered this to Hag, sadly having to walk inbetween her circle of fellow gossipers and to interupt their fellowshipping, and guess what she told me?
"take the blue file over there (i couldn't even see where her 'there' was just by her eye power. she didn't even point it out, instead stared at the blue file.) and check." check what? was i supposed to give the customer his/her book she wanted to claim? how'd i know if that slip of paper they gave me was authentic shit. Hag wasn't even looking at me when she said that. she was still so into the gossiping fellowship. did she see that i was so bloody confused?
3#:
we were supposed to have lunch break. and there was no eating places nearby, hence Hag would often send her daughter who works with us, to take orders and buy food back to the school. she didn't even bother ask ali and i what we wanted and her daughter then left to buy their chicken rice. were we supposed to work till 4pm without lunch?
4#:
they didn't pack those pre-odered boxes well. when ali and i served this customer who pre-ordered and went through the booklist with him, we found out that half of the items in that bloody box wasn't included in and the amounted price included everything on the list as well as some that were not supposed to be included. nice one there ladies, cos the customer almost killed us when we didn't know what was going on. wtf were they doing while packing these boxes? just everyday gossiping i guess:)
5#:
we've been told to help out this certain aunty in-charge (which turned out to be Hag) on the phone before we actually met Hag, before we started work at De LaSalle. heard that customers were complaining about mistakes she made or something. no wonder, she was too busy gossiping to check for her customers.
6#:
they made us pack up while they chatted away. everything! and even intructed us where to put what back to their places.
7#:
Hag and gang decided to go off early, so they packed up, took up their bags, and was about to leave. ali and i did the same since we always left when the aunties in charge left. and again, guess what they told us? "you all stay back, it's not yet time to leave, still a few minutes more and if there's any customers, you attend to them." and they left.
8#:
they earn much more than us. doing nothing.

such a screwed up day at work, but during our trip home on the mrt was hilarious! added 2 more people to my list of "the few (not quite few though) insane/sick/perveted people i met this year" one kept walking up and down the mrt, at least 5 times i guess. just walking! another sat beside me and kept staring. when i turned, he turned and stared. omg, really stared. i think he's scared of me. i'm scared too uncle! couples were everywhere too. we observed the two-seater in the mrt endlessly being sat on by couples. one guy was wearing an exact hairband his gf was wearing too. ha. and we played the some turban game. whoops. i shalln't blog it down.

2006-12-04T20:33:00.000+08:00

For the benefit of my dearest mum, i shall announce the grand arrival of her new (PINK) blog. after much help from me (and also much explaining of blog terms: e.g. what a blogskin is...) she is a PROUD NEW OWNER of her (PINKISH) blog. and she will have her link on my blog so that her blog can be publicise, hooray! Cheers to you mum!
just worked at De LaSalle School and got treated like shit *spits* by that shit ass old hag in charge. (you deserved that anyway, hence no apology offered for this:) Got blamed for not informing her that ali was working with me and she thought it just just me workig alone. (was the boss' job to tell that lady-in-charge cum shit ass that TWO girls were coming along to work for her instead of just one) that hag just kept on grumbling and blaming me that she had too many workers under her and (obviously telling us ali wasn't needed) that she already called her friend to help out, who was on the way already. i could have utilised the use of my middle finger then(just joking) or even toss a stack of books at her. we were totally ignored like shit, almost ignored for lunch, almost ignored for going home. ali and i sat at the corner waiting for that hag to dismiss us while she happily waved and chit-chatted to her colleagues. damn it.
oh, forgot to mention, i'm back on this job, called back by the boss herself. Ha! figured that they were short of helpers. so we went from Maris, to St Mic's, and now to De LaSalle. it gets further and further each time. takes 1 hr or more to reach work place:( 5 more days to endure that hag's bullying. i think a woman of her age should act her age. looks 50+++ to me? think so:)

2006-12-02T18:09:00.000+08:00

ahh, found a nice skin finally. took me a long time. had tuition at mark's house today. chem tuition. yay, i didn't fall asleep! (:

2006-12-01T20:32:00.000+08:00

~st mic's is a green school. literally GREEN. the walls are painted green, the doors are green, the plants are green (they have to be), the curtains are green, the books and school examination pads are green, and the sky looked green after working there for hours. i think i'm turning green too.~
quitted my job at st mic's 2 days back, and will be back on that job but another school soon. long story, ali wrote it in her blog. finally, the internet and phone line's back on. yay(:

2006-11-30T23:00:00.000+08:00

Shifted to my half done house 2 days back. HALF DONE. and i almost died of shock yesterday. thanks to someone (:

2006-11-25T22:14:00.001+08:00

suddenly feel like throwing my blog aside for the time being and not blogging for a long, long while.No church service tmr cos there was one today, specially for the p6 transfers. Oh yay, i'm already 3 weeks into work, and i've survived one week even without ali and with that irritating girl. in fact, i'm so used to her already.about 5 of bro's friends are here for some sleepover (that sounds abit gay) and they've taken over internet modemn. darn. and i'm having problems connecting from my room.Moving house on the following tuesday too. ahhh, i love the smell of paint and paquete flooring.(don't think it's spelt like that) no bloody mood to joke around these past days.

2006-11-19T19:40:00.000+08:00

Okie. i'm bored now so today's entry will be solely dedicated to my sujects. (subjects of my stalking that is :) Yes my dears. i know, sue me (if you're the guy in that pic cos i took it when you weren't looking and when your dad/coach/grandpa/friend/bodyguard was glaring at me.)

I know, I make some darn lousy stalker if i say stalking has become my day job. but it has! whoohoo.

yes, okay, for starters, poor resolution, taken approximately 10m away with some weird man warning me off with his glaring eyes while i sneakily (or not so sneakily waving my cousin's hp infront of them) snap my SSS boy watching the Aviva. But it's the thought that counts eh? I er, happened to be sitting near him and saw him all 3 days i went there. but i found him [stashed away] sitting at the opposite side of the stadium the next day. must be his bodyguard who made him do so.

And this is, abotu my new-found friend. yes, friend. drats, alright, i don't know him yet. but i will, with the help of Rachel. and his picture will soon be posted here. friends, be noted. make way for for YANGYANG! SSS is currently out, but if i don see him again next year for the zonals or by any chance elsewhere other than SSS...oh yes, he'll be back

now i sound like some sick shit who goes around checking out on her victims. horribly boring now. i'm gonna have tuition, chem tuition, from bro's friend. ok, church friend. Mark mark markie. hmm, it is weird having some church friend you hardly talk to, to teach you like some teacher. i think i might drive him nuts with my disgustingly sick shit chem grades. all the best markie.

2006-11-17T20:46:00.000+08:00

i'm actually really starting to get used to this job even though i smile less with the customers cos i'm used to some of their stuck-up attitudes and figured i needn't smile too much cos they don't notice anyway. and i'm getting attached to this school i think. gonna shift to the sec sch next wed cos we're done with the pri sch's side. and there's no work tmr, next mon and tues too. yay, free time. i think i'd better start training. jo! train me... ok, i mean, train with me. my fitness suck like shit now. oh, and i've managed these 2 days without ali but with that sec 1 girl only. whee! i'm starting to get used to her. just need to listen to the mp3 the whole day, read a book, go to the canteen for long lunch breaks and 1/2 hr drinks break. (or simply, check out if yangyang's there?) (whoops:)

2006-11-16T21:16:00.000+08:00

had my first day of work alone. as in without ali. she's probably in Canada now on her hol trip. Read some stupid library book which reads "Nice Girls Don't Swear". that book was sucky. some loser-shit that tries to brainwash us girls to be all nicey and TOO femanine. some parts hinted for girls to "play hard to get" kinda shit. that shit ass girl was better at work today, didn't give a shit bout her. read that shitty book the whole day and got so amused by the crap it contained that i didn't have appetite to finish up my chicken rice. and my eardrums might burst anytime considering how much loud music i've been listening to throughout the whole day to occupy myself. oh, and while i was in the canteen eating lunch, guess who was there? a-huh! YANGYANG was eating on the table opposite mine! didn't realised till i lifted my eyes off that shitty book and looked straight ahead. whoohoo!

2006-11-12T20:46:00.000+08:00

I have made up my mind. I shalln't spend my whole wage on the mp4. I shall, instead, go shopping for so much more other things that costs just one mp4. Maybe cos Sarah woke me up. I don't need that mp4! or at least, it's too expensive.
Anyway, there's this badminton dude from the SBA who comes round the nearby coffeeshop every sunday after church. and HE'S HOT. ok, guess what, he's the coach of Maris's badminton boys. the primary sch boys. Argh, so coincidental. and even more coincidentally, RACHEL IS HIS NEIGHBOUR. omg, childhood spent with him. I told her to snap a shot of him. (sneak shot, heh). gosh, another victim of my stalking. after that SSS boy, that is. Rachel says my forte lies with stalking people. she might hire me anytime. hmmm. i know his mum works at woodbridge too. and she plays mahjong. what next. *sees jayne eyeing me suspiciously* (i told her i'd write him a fan mail. ~from secret admirer~ and ask rachel to pass it to her neighbour) YANGYANG. WHEE!

2006-11-11T20:32:00.000+08:00

these are the mp4s i'm working for. but I'm going mad cos the Zen Vision W (http://sg.store.creative.com/products/product.aspx?catid=213&pid=15752) Where the hell do I get that money?! I'm only working for a short 20 plus days... or I'd have to then settle for the Zen Vision (http://sg.store.creative.com/products/product.aspx?catid=213&pid=12985) or Zen Vision M (http://sg.store.creative.com/products/product.aspx?catid=213&pid=14331). Check them out cos i think they're cool.

2006-11-11T19:16:00.000+08:00

yesterday's work was full of hot mamas. today's full of shit. first customer was some shit ass man who demanded to get boxes for his books, but the thing is the box only comes with those who pre-ordered. his was a walk-in. our boss told us not to provide these boxes to those walk-ins cos the boxes were bought. which means $$$. that shit ass guy then demanded to call the boss. and when i boss gave in and gave him 2 boxes, he was all nicey to us afterward. and that shit ass sec one girl who's the daughter of the lady in charge of the bookshop at Maris bossed me around again. here's why i can't stand her piggsy attitude:

1) She's 2 years younger then me (although i know she's much taller then me.)
2) She's got this bloody 'kick-me' face
3) She called me a freak on my 3rd day of work
4) She's jealous that her cousin who works with us talks alot to us and bullies her instead
5) I don't know how the hell she got the idea he likes us cos she asked him if he did. And she dislikes us for getting her cousin's attention.
6) She blamed me for giving a customer the wrong change though she was the one who charged the customer. And she scolded me infront of that customer.
7) She doesn't want to tie her long frizzy hair though she says it's hot obviously for vanity's sake
8) She keeps combing her darn hair infront of a glass window shamelessly.
9) She's in badminton (i can't help but add this in)
10) She wore tights today. she isn't exactly slim (i can't help but add this one in too :)

That's about it. Should there be more that i can remember, it'll go down into this list. Anyway, as i was talking about all those arrogant rich snubs... most of them came in, in their SUVs and all, with those bloody haughty accent. And picked on almost everything. Even about the school gates being closed and them not being informed about it. how the bloody hell should i know that?
I wore my Ashaway jersey from last year's competition to work today and when i was in the canteen, some badminton guy from the secondary school entered the canteen as well. in the same jersey. how embarrassing to be staring at someone wearing the same shirt as you. i hurriedly left the canteen with Ali. Ha.

2006-11-10T20:44:00.000+08:00

Had more sales today and majority of them were hot mamas coming in with their hot cars. rich people. And i'm gonna have another tuition kid hopefully. one customer asked for my number.
I'm having the lack of sleep now. close to 2 months now. but now that i'm working it's even worse. having to put up with that pissy girl at work takes up alot of my energy.
The weather's hectic these past days and it's especially cold today. I think i'm gonna fall really ill soon.
ALICIA LACKS GUTS. thank you. (you deserved that. but i know you're still happy since your name gets to appear in my entries)

2006-11-09T21:30:00.000+08:00

I almost died. Along with Ali. Went to school today to help Ali with her freakin project which was to design and produce a whole costume made out of recycled materials. It was a LAST MINUTE project, as I always tell Ali, and it almost killed us. ok, that wasn't what almost killed us. the thing is, we lost all the materials just the day before hence we needed to start from scratch. today was the dead line and we lacked materials so our dearest physics teacher told us to get some leaves. (although I don't know how is it related to recycled materials) Just as we were happily...alright, maybe, not too happily plucking away in the school garden...You see, I was doing the plucking while Ali was watching out. (We had almost been caught trying to climb the garden fence and out of school, by the principal once, so our fear of being caught there again was rational.) And boom! Mr principal suddenly appeared in the scene 10 m away out of nowhere and was staring at us. me in particular, with all those leaves in my hand. I swear i saw him smiling, weird. but we just freaked out cos the plant in front of us which i was plucking was balding. And obviously I was the cause of it considering the bunch of plucked leaves in my hand. Both of us just freaked out. we just FREAKED OUT. cos we'd be dead cos mr principal aboslutely LOVES and ADORES his BELOVED PLANTS. We just shouted "RAN!" in front of him and ran half the school back to the classroom on the 3rd floor. now that made us just criminals. if only we stood there and greeted him. (he gets darn happy when people greet him) heh, that's sucking up, but at least we could point fingers at our physics teacher. but we ran! Darnit, it makes matters worse. I hope the principal didn't see my shoes cos i wasn't wearing our black school shoes but Nike's. and I hope he didn't remember Ali's damn trademark. Her two friggin plaits. no one I know still ties two plaits to school like some kid. but she does. so techinically, that makes her one of the most memorable person you can think of.
I'm darn happy today though i think i'm down with a flu. It's just too much too write.

2006-11-06T19:05:00.000+08:00

Just came back from my first day of work at Maris Stella High. Super slack, so much that it was a torture. There was less than 10 customers, hence the maximum time I really worked was really less than 3 hrs. But I was sitting around chatting with Ali and some new friends for another 6 whole hrs. There was no friggin work to do. Dead tired from doing absolutely nothing.

2006-11-03T21:29:00.000+08:00

Today was officially the last day of school cos our one week of extended lessons are over. (yay!) To be honest, I haven't exactly been listening in all classes except for physics. (that teacher's darn alert and strict) AND MY DEAREST ALI PONNED HALF DAY this morning. Nice one girl, nice one. So it was just Gracie and I then. First hour was chem, and we left for the toilet. Slacked in there thoughout and called Ali up. We got quite a few scares when we heard footsteps but it turned out to be the cleaner. Talked (maybe gossip?) about teachers with the cleaner who seemed to know alot about our form teacher who wears maternity wear even when she's not pregnant. She's pregnant now and she's been wearing that certain dress at least twice a week since then. Used to be once a week before having that baby came around. Next hour was history but KJ asked if we wanted to leave school for MacD at compasspoint. (I think he was just as bored) But when we went back to class, our teacher decided to sit infront of our tables to mark her stuff and chat with us. How rather unfortunate. Ali came just in time for physics. Talked about *coughs* again. Man, she's the most fickle-minded, undecisive girl I've known. Hmm, speaking about Ali, I am suddenly reminded about getting jacked by her (well thank you very much) and Gracie. jo says i jacked myself indirectly. Was during one of the badminton training days while 3 of us were left in class. Started fooling around posing and tied my towel around my neck lilke some stupid Brownie girl and danced around with a broom and sang. SHIT. I even did a curtsey. All that went into Ali's handphone. Not pictures even. It was a darn video. That's not the bad part, i didn't know they SECRETLY uploaded it on the net. And they refused to tell me where to find it. I just know they asked JK and Mel to watch it and it's probably gonna spread. Jo at her most retarded state always starts off with the handphone and its camera functions. I really wonder if i'm that camera-shy now. Darnit stupid girls.

2006-10-24T18:32:00.001+08:00

Cell group came over this afternoon for lunch and there were lotsa kids running around. i still maintain the fact that some of them are brats. spoiled brats too. they were running up and down the stairs while i was in my darn room upstairs trying to sleep. and then they went up to the 3rd floor, they started slamming the toilet door repeatedly. great, my room's just beside the toilet. i got so pissed that i came out of my room to attend to the din outside. heh, i stared at some of those kiddies and i bet they were kinda freaked out by me that they went down to the guest room downstairs. shoo!
the food was good, ah-huh! i'm still pretty full so i don't think i'll have dinner. played bridge with the gloria, grace and gabriel. well, i'm embarrassed to admit, this IS my FIRST TIME playing bridge. my bro tried teaching me it years back but i never got it. and i still don't think i've got a full grip on what the whole game is about. i'm such a noob at it that i think gab was abit pissed off cos i kept asking questions. heh. i shalln't play it again until i've learnt this whole game well.
The new house is still in the middle of works. Dad says we'll be moving in end Nov. that's next month. I can't wait. I love the smell of fresh paint!

2006-10-23T21:23:00.000+08:00

Went out with Ali and Grace this morning. Met at cp at 10, walked around quite a fair bit while waiting for ali's sissy to end school so we could all go pick her up and make our way to downtown east. after 3 hrs or loitering at cp, her sissy called to say she had cca so ali needn't pick her up. darnit....we wasted our time didn't we? made our way to downtown east, wanted to eat steamboat, but guess what?!? it said 'opens tues-sun'. and today's, yea...MONDAY. hmm, ate some western food instead and the uncle cheated me. headed to tm next. walked for like, maybe another 5 hrs. i saw a Yonex black badminton bag. argh!! i am gonna buy it one day. Gracie got rather pissed with ali cos ali didn't have self-control. ali bought quite some things and when she saw a nike shoe bag, she started squealing and and begged me to lend her some bucks. that got Gracie quite mad (gracie's motherly instinct surfaces) and she received a lecture about "the nike shoe bag is something you want, it's not a need! you have a shoe bag already! and your parents earned all this money....". yea, agreeable, but i seriously haven't seen grace so pissed off. and aggressive. well, even ali was scared and she looked in my direction for approval to get that bag even though she did NOT have the bucks. told her simply to make up her mind. i was caught in the middle actually. we popped by the arcade too. some shooting game i played with gracie. ali didn't dare play. ha, she claimed she screams while she play. and gracie testified that it was true cos she played with ali before. whee, i was later declared a better player then ali :)

2006-10-19T11:32:00.000+08:00

I think i pulled my left calve muscle badly. have been limping for 3 days since 2 trainings back. and my racket string snapped while i sparred with xy. and guess whose racket i got to use? yea, yi loong's. Ali and grace were laughing like hell cos that was the only racket coach was holding on to. how ironic. And miss lee made me do 50 lobs, or more like a hundred, for failing the chinese paper. pays to have a higher mother tongue as teacher-in-charge. trained with the guys yesterday although it was supposed to be girls' training. apparently they skipped their guys' training the day before and miss lee was so mad that she called them up for our training. py almost got me killed there. If you were there, you'd know why. Sigh, had alot to say afew days back but it seems like i don't now. i haven't had alot to say on blogger recently. And oh ya, i yelled at my mum today. i feel unclogged. ha.